this is the last existing toy that i have during my childhood.  my father bought this for me when i was in my 3rd grade, i was about a 9-year-old then.  it’s a japan-made plastic toy jeepney which runs without batteries – you just push it then it makes a clackety-clack sound.  until now it works, eventhough some of its parts have been gone.

his name is ‘blizzard’ and he was my prized possession as a kid.  i won’t even let my other playmates touch him for i was worried he might get scratched or damaged.  i used to take care of him religiously, like after i play with him i dust him off with a small brush, then i use a wet rag to wipe off clean the body and the tires, then i store him in his box. 

i think even in my younger years, i was already an ocd case.  LOL!

this morning one of our assistant drillers, justin, unexpectedly asks me if i have ocd (obsessive compulsive disorder).  i told him why’d he asked and he replied that it’s because he noticed how i organize my stuff on my office desk.  well i have always been “neat” on my workspace, i do confess that i get upset when one of my pens or my post-its are missing, or the scissors or the stapler are not in the proper place where i left them to be..

when it comes to people with ocd, the brain gets hooked on a disturbing thought or idea and can’t let go.  because the troubling thoughts loop and malinger beyond the control of the patient, the condition has been compared to a case of “mental hiccups”.

in order to cope with these unwanted thoughts or “obsessions”, the patient often develop rituals or “compulsions” to minimize or alleviate the mental distress caused by the troubling thoughts.  however, these rituals are only temporary fixes and relief from the obsessions.

so, as I was on a “not that busy” mode this afternoon, i tried to browse subjects on the net regarding ocd.  i found a screening quiz about it and took it.  here was my result:

results of your obsessive compulsive disorder screening

you scored a total of 16 

if you scored 12 and up, then ocd is likely

if you scored 8 – 11, then ocd is probable

if you scored 0 -7, then ocd is unlikely

this is not meant as a diagnosis tool.

based upon your responses to this screening measure, you are most likely suffering from an obsessive compulsive disorder.  this is not a diagnosis, or a recommendation for treatment.  however, it would be advisable and likely beneficial for you to seek a professional diagnosis from a trained mental health professional in your community immediately.

that wasn’t a good result.  anyways, as long as my “ocd” does not interfere or hinder any of my usual daily activites – i think i’ll be okay.

oh, did i double locked my door?  i have to check that before hitting the sack..