i lasted for another year in the company i am working for. this year has been quite rough, considering the recession that seems to be just lurking around and affects everyone. i have seen my co-workers lose their jobs and sent back home – never a happy scene. the latest, were rumors that the management are slashing about 150 rig personnel at the start of the next year. people ask me if it was true, asking me if a memo has been e-mailed from base camp or a letter from the rig mail was received. if i knew, i would not even dare to talk about for it just distresses me.

. . . sometimes i think the only way to make all things better is to escape.

. . . why do i always hurt the one i love?